Dear Evil Twin

Dear Evil Twin,

                I’m writing this letter to you, my evil twin, because I have a few things that I need to say to you.  Please understand that I call you my evil twin with all due respect.  J  As a reference, I am including a picture so there is no confusion as to who I am talking to.


I wanted to write and finally tell you THANK YOU.  I feel like I owe you that for teaching me so many things about myself.

First and foremost, I want to thank you for teaching me that I have the ability to change.  I really didn’t think I could for a long time.  So many times I settled for the way things were.  I now realize that I do have the power to change.  I did not have to settle for life as I had come to know it.  I did not have to settle for the life I was leading for myself or my family.  It was a difficult lesson that took me a while to learn, but I did learn it and I say thank you.

Because I learned that I can change, I also learned that I must live my life with intention.  Most of the time when I lived in your body, I wasn’t intentional at all.  You see, when I lived inside your body, the only things I did by intention were eat and sleep, usually in that order.  I didn’t pay any attention to what I was eating, how much I was eating or even when I was eating for that matter.  I’ve learned a great deal about being intentional with everything I do, because I’ve also learned that everything I do matters. 

Thank you for the lesson that everything I do matters and that everything I do counts.  This lesson that everything matters is a great life lesson that I needed to learn.  There are people watching my every move.  These people may be co-workers, family, friends, but the most important eyes that are watching are those that belong to my daughters.  I now know that everything I do matters to them. They are taking everything in around them.  They are learning from the habits that I follow today.  These are healthy habits for the most part and I owe that to you, my evil twin for teaching me that lesson.

Another great lesson I’ve learned is about my relationship with food.  I never viewed food as a fuel for my body before.  I now know so much more about what I put in my body and I owe that to you as well.  Food is now a fuel for my body and I pay attention to everything I put in my mouth.  I still enjoy what I eat, and even indulge from time to time.  It is the perspective from which my mindset comes from that is different now.  I’ve also learned that as a once extremely picky eater, that I can be reformed also.  I’ve tried more foods, fruits, vegetables in the last two years than I would have ever imagined.

I’ve learned what real endorphins are and I’m in love with them.  J   As a runner, I can honestly say I’ve had that 100% natural high of the endorphin rush.  That has to be one of the greatest natural feelings on the planet.  You have also helped me find my real passion.   I have the honor and privilege of helping others achieve their own goals with health and wellness.  This is a passion I would not have known had it not been for you, my evil twin, for that I must say thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

I truly embrace the lessons that you have taught me.  I own each of these lessons mentioned above.  I will forever be grateful to you my evil twin.  However, I don’t want you to be offended when I say you are no longer welcome in my life.  I mean, you will always be a part of my life.  I can’t change that fact.  What I really mean to say is that I don’t care to ‘see you’ again.  You were my life for too long, I know that now and I’ve changed, a lot.



PS – a quick note to my current and future self – I commit to maintaining this healthy lifestyle for my family, my friends and most of all, myself.


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